Oh How I Hate You, But Love You...

Oh how I hate that I want you in my life.

I love the way you can make me feel, but I hate the way you can make me feel.

You can keep me up at all times of the night. For both good and bad reasons.

You control how high I can be, How low I can be. I have no control over you and it drives me absolutely insane. You can have me in a incontrollable loop. One where I am spinning round and round. I don't want to get off, and when I am thrown off I am so sick from the spinning...

You tease me by showing me others on the ride...Making me want you even more than before. I would do anything to get a taste of what its like to have you again. I would put my needs and wants to the side. I would block out the advice and warnings those closest to me tell me. I would ignore my instincts just to keep you with me. I HATE you, But I LOVE you all at the same time.

This thin line between love and hate will not go away and its killin me... I feel like I can't breathe without you. I feel a void without you... I feel like yelling to the top of my lungs, but you won't hear me. You will look at me and laugh the most devious laugh.

Oh how I hate you... But oh how I love you... LOVE.